One of those days where I feel EVERYTHING.
I feel a little overwhelmed. And I want to be alone.

the optimist's creed

To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person I meet.
To make all my friends feel that there is something worthwhile in them.
To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
To think only of the best, to work only for the best and to expect only the best.
To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.
To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
To wear a cheerful expression at all times and give a smile to every living creature I meet.
To give so much time to improving myself that I have no time to criticize others.
To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.
To think well of myself and to proclaim this fact to the world, not in loud words, but in great deeds.
To live in the faith that the whole world is on my side, so long as I am true to the best that is in me.

I have a new boyfriend. His name is Corey. He is a 300 pound black man. He is a good dancer. He likes my energy. He's going to holler at me. He's going to take me to dinner at the Renaissance Hotel and buy me some drinks. I'm cool with that.

P.s. Last night was the most fun I've ever had in my life.

JUNE 12th!?!?!
Really???
JUNE 12th?!?!?

Where the fuck does the time go?
Think for a second about how fast these 6 months have gone by. Then think for a second about all the crazy things that are going to be happening at this time next year. Then realize how fast that's going to come.

Friends, we gotta have fun. This is like the last summer ever.

home.

I talked to Frankie yesterday for the first time in a long time. I've been thinking about him a lot lately because of things my friends are going through and because I spent so much time with my family this weekend and for some reason that makes me think of him(?). I called him and he answered and I immediately burst into tears. Something about hearing Frankie's voice has always been so comforting to me, from the moment I met him. I remember when I first got to college and I was so overwhelmed. I would call him before going to bed and would collapse into tears the second he said "hello" because it just felt like home to me. It's weird that after almost 6 months have gone by and I've barely spoken to him and he still has that effect on me. We talked about work and our families, completely avoided the subject of who we're dating. After all the bad things he's done and all the bad things we've been through, I can't forget what a good friend he was to me. He was like my family. He was my heart. And I miss him.

"And in the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make."
-The Beatles

I have really good people in my life. I hope I am as good to them as they are to me.

lolcats

i'm just so happy that they exist.

Somebody wrote me a song. It's precious, really precious, and it made my day.

It sucks to realize that you have a crush on someone that you're more or less not allowed to have a crush on.

But it's also super fun.

Zeitgeist

I watched Zeitgeist last night. Even if every idea in that film is fabricated bullshit, at least it opened my eyes for long enough to make me question everything. Blindly following corrupt leaders will surely bring about the end of the world. I wish everyone would watch this movie just so that they can get really, really angry for a minute because there are so many things in the world that we should be angry about.