boyfriend

Oh, I love him so.

colorado

so...
everything is great. i'm done with clean water action. i didn't know that working for an environmental nonprofit could be a bad experience, but that place stressed me out and made me unhappy everyday. the main problem is that they're working on a bullshit campaign. writing thank you letters to politicians is NOT ACTIVISM. i decided this weekend to move to Community for Sustainable Energy, another local canvass that actually works on local issues. I'm excited. The people there are amazing and I think I will fit right in because a lot of the staff have ties to Texas Campaign for the Environment, my home and my family.

Rob is beyond amazing. I was nervous putting everything on the line and moving here to be with him, but that's gone. He promised me that if I moved here he would be the best boyfriend I ever had and he has beyond kept his promise. I feel so lucky to be with him everyday. I honestly can't believe he's real. I guess I can leave it at that. I'm happy happy happy happy happy happy.

yes, im posting love song lyrics

I've seen love go by my door
It's never been this close before
Never been so easy or so slow
Been shooting in the dark too long
When something's not right it's wrong
You gonna make me lonesome when you go
Dragon clouds so high above
I've only known careless love
It's always hit me from below
But this time around it's more correct
Right on target, so direct
you gonna make me lonesome when you go
Flowers on the hillside, bloomin' crazy
Crickets talkin' back and forth in rhyme
Blue river runnin' slow and lazy
I could stay with you forever
And never realize the time
Situations have ended sad
Relationships have all been bad
Mine've been like Verlaine's and Rimbaud
But there's no way I can compare
All those scenes to this affair
You're gonna make me lonesome when you go
-bob dylan, who else?

"When love is not madness, it is not love."

Moving to Colorado on May 1. Probably the craziest thing I've ever done, but for some reason I'm not at all scared. Everything is so clear. I feel at peace for once. It seems like all my bad history was erased over the last three weeks. I can't remember ever being this happy.

Just logged onto myspace for the first time in a while. Got a message from Big Frank letting me know that Frankie's engaged. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I knew this was going to happen soon, and I knew it would feel just like this, a punch in the stomach. I'll be over it in a minute, but I'm kind of freaking out right now.

home

It sounds so good.

"I'll save half the world, he decided. The other half can burn away to nothing."

-lowboy by john wray

The book I'm reading now. F-ing brilliant.